Finally, this madness has come to a close. After 3 weeks of mental torment and ego-destroying attacks, I can now get away from relatives that I don't want to associate with and see all of you back home. Just a few more hours before I leave for the airport (better smoke up more, I wouldn't get to for the entire wait).
I would honestly say that this trip wasn't enjoyable at all. Apart from the long arcade trips and the solo exploration trips, it was pretty much going through shit, such as getting forced into boring tourist spots (flower appreciation wtf) and having to follow princess window shop. It felt more like a spiritual training pilgrimage. If there is one thing I hate, it's my freedom getting restricted.
Right now I'm staying awake as usual, hoping to sleep pass the boring flight. Bitch is forcing me off the com soon. What a cunt.
I thought about life in general while I was here. No deep revelations, but I learnt that my life is pretty decent. I don't have to drive trucks late into the night, nor do I have to brave the rain and deliver newspapers at 4am. Also, I realised that all I want out of life is to do whatever I want. Fuck the Singaporean dream, fuck everyone else's expectations. I live the way I want, don't push your shattered aspirations on me.
I also discovered how important people are to me. No, not people in general (misanthrope Boon still lives), but those who are close to me. Fuck, getting saperated from them actually hurts. No, I don't cry myself to sleep, but I miss the fun hanging out with them. Here's a bunch of dedicated thanks I want to give to.
To Anthony : You are one person who made the largest impact in my life. Since Sec 3 onwards, you have been putting up with my bullshit and convincing me that there is a brighter side to life, that is to fuck it and be happy. Emo Boon wouldn't have dissapeared without you, nor would Christian Boon without your diabolic influence (I'm smoking now thanks to you, haha). You taught me to enjoy what I can and to appreciate people. Thanks dude, I wouldn't have been the way I am without you. I know I have let you down, and I'm trying to improve now. We are going to rock the world!
To Jun: You are pretty much a jerk for shooting me all the time, but you are still important to me with your tough-love bullshit. I'll beat you in sparing by the end of the year, just you wait, Dong Li Jiao Che.
To Xavier : You unleashed Tinker Boon. Now he's all deep and cryptic. Haha, you are definitely another pillar of strength of mine. You are not weird, because I'm the definition of weird. Thank you for all the shit you taught me, I'll beat you in arm-wrestling on last day of the year. I haven't forgotten the agreement. Stop watching all the horrible anime Kok recommends, because it sucks serious balls.
To Kok : You are horrible at dota, your taste in anime sucks and a nub in general, but you still put up with my shit. Free BB credits at your place too. Thanks.
To CS,Gan,Jie,XQ and the rest : You guys are the only ones who probably appreciate my sense of humor. True smoking buddies as well. I'll play harder with you guys when I get back.
So the trip has ended. Holidays would be ending soon. I have been in a daze for way too long. I shall not falter and continue being chained into a stasis, for tomorrow's harvest depends on today's efforts. Gotta' constantly be active, gotta' make my own way into the world.
Time to get this shit started.
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